Ahhhh. I love your share. I feel moved to tears (though I feel moved to tears a lot when I think of you – which is a newer experience for me)…
These past two years I have been on a mission to become a more deeply feeling woman and I strongly suspect that
1) you get to reap the benefits of that and
2) You get to drag me now deeper into my feeling soul. (maybe I will drag you into the infinite :))
I would like to continue playing that edge and that is so scary for me because that is an edge that Kal tried to play with me, but with such little patience or compassion. I want that level of play, but i am so scared and I don’t know why i want it – and sometimes im just going to want to talk about the weather and swim on the surface – and I want you to enjoy doing that with me too….playing like that dips me down into the “things I don’t know that I don’t know” ocean.
I’m currently surrounded by a lot of people (like you) who know a lot of things I don’t know, and that is scary because I have to trust that you all know what you are doing when you dip me down into those places where you know and i don’t – or even those places where neither of us knows….
I’m rambling
I feel strong sensations when I think of you
I am moved by you
and I want to continue choosing you
this all feels big
…
j
